Yesterday was hazri's last day at SG. I finally managed to know after ina informed me.I f she have not informed me, i would not have known. Hazri will never tell me definitely. I dunno ever since my last day there, hazri, zu and ina have been a bit a far from me. When i came there yesterday, i felt that i had miss out quite a lot of things and everybody seems to ignore my presence. I know that zu and ina have been hiding something from me. But nevermind. I kept telling myself. How long can secrets last? It is just a matter of time before i know them. It is either that i know it now or later. Thats all.
As for abg Hazri, i hope he will like his new job although it is quite far way (loyang). I wish that he will save enough money and get married soon. Amin. I want him to be happy with his life. I always pray for his hapiness. My teacher once said. If we like something we should let it go. If that thing come back to us, it means that it is our. If it doesn't, then it happen to belong to someone else. I always relate this phrase with abg hazri. So by now shahidah, you should have know the answer very well.
Up till now i never had any outing with them. Saded right? Abg hazri promise me that someday he will bring me and the rest out but it seems to be an empty promise. Is because that i have curfews that they neglect me? I always feel like crying when i think about this. Hopefully, like what they said, they going to have an Hari Raya outing later in the year. I hope they remember me.
If you guys want to know the truth, I still miss abg hazri like my brother. Ever since i started school that brother love have been disconnected from me. Besides him, i dunno who else to look upon as my brother. As i am writing now, i still remembered the days that we have fun together. Especially the dinner that i had with him during my SG days. It just keep reapeating in my head without fail. As it repeats, my heart just could not stop feeling hurt and my eyes were always filled with tears. Abg hazri...pls don't leave me alone. I felt so lost without you around.
